-MY BESTIES BIRTHDAY-

                       Rie tok 23 jan...bday salah seorg bff aku yg ku syg gilak2....nya tok sorg yg tinggi,putih and da campuran arab...muka nya nang kdk arab....hehehe.....prangai nya tok nang kdk mbiak kecik and sorg yg sabar....that why ku syg nya....mun ku da masalah ku slalu crita ngn nya,especially bout love....either happy or sedih....
                   23 jan genap umur nya 17 tahun...dh tua kwn ku tok....marek sempat keluar ngn nya main badminton...enjoy gilak...tok gmbr mekrg>>>

-AMAZING-

                 Bila ku post kdk tok "You may not love me today,tomorrow or ever....but I will love you until it kills me and even then....you'll be in my heart....=')" Adiwira is the third one yg like status ya...ku tau nya paham mksd ku....tp ku xtau lah nya kn marah ngn ku or sik....antara nya paham isi hati ku or sik..ermmm~
                 In the same time MR.M pun like status ya...tp ku sik mksd kn MR.M pun ku mksd kn Adiwira....harap nya paham....huhuhu....tp sik pa lah..at least cdak g cares ngn bnda di post ku nk.....ku sik tau pa perasaan ku nektok...either happy or sebalik nya....-.-

-FULL MOON-

                Bulan malam tok terang jak...now ku g on9 di bah sinaran bulan....eceh....hahaha..erm..mun dh sorg2 nangga bulan tok alu terinngat ngn smua sahabat astronomy....teringin gilak mok stargrazing bersama2 g eyh...rindu gilak moment ya....dolok time frst join astronomy xpat mok polah stargrazing coz awan di tutup awan.....2 malam mekrg nanti tp xsempat jwak....
            second try is time brainstroming kat gunung gading...time ya dpt lah stargrazing tp group mekrg busy BBQ...hehe....da lah polah stargrazing sekejab....best gilak2 moment ya....mun pat polah g mst enjoy abis....rindu mok dgr suara riuh rendah time polah stargrazing....

                    
        Lagu tok kira mood ku nektok lah....ku mok klaka ngn bulan...mok luah kn smua bnda dlm hati ku....especially untuk si Adiwira....

-HAPPY-

              Entah lah gniey ku mok crita pasal perasaan ku.....now ku happy gilak then ku bersyukur jwak yg nya still layan ku mcm sebelum nya.....ku tau mun nya bca tok mst nya mdh nya x selesa ngn smua tok...tp ku mok nya tau ku polah tok smua nya coz ku boring....eyh...xda lah ku buat tok coz ku mok berterima kasih ngn nya coz ku layan ku mcm org yg sebelum nya...nya tau spa yg ku mksd kn.....MR.M...yg dh lost contact ngn nya after pa yg terjadi...=(
           Mun ku da kekuatan ingin jak ku mdh ngn Adiwira yg ku happy ngn nya even sebagai seorg adk or sahabat astronomy.....=')....ku hormati permintaan nya ya...nya da hak atas smua tok....g pun tok mengait kn ngn hidup nya jwak and kebahagiaan nya....nya da hak mok tentu kn spa org yg nya suka...aku hnya mampu jd adk nya jak.....ku dh terima smua ya....
          Now ku kn anggap nya sebagai seorg kwn merangkap abg ku pun jak...ku xmok merosak kn hubungn tok kdk yg sebelum nya....biar lah smua ya berlalu..ku xmok pisang berbuah 2 kali....cukup lah sekali jak....=)

-HIS WORDS-

                 Ku mula kn smua tok dgn HEY!!!...=)...btw ku boring bh so ku mok update blog aku jak lah.....now ku mok story mory about Adiwira....mun nya bca tok nang knk lah aku...knk berus...hee~....tp ku bkn da pdh pa2 pun,ku just mention about kebaikan nya kat family nya,kwn2 nya,adk2 angkat nya and smua sahabat astronomy yg lain....
               Actually ku rasa smua org suka berkawan ngn nya tok....dgn perangai nya yg suka menasihatkn org d sekeliling nya...bila kta dgn nya mst ati kta tenang jak...aku pdh gia coz aku dh mengalami smua tok...time ku g frust menongeng ngn MR.M nya lah yg selalu beri semangat and nasihat dgn aku...time ya tang tenang jak jiwa ku....setiap bnda yg nya ucap always comfort me sampai kn ku pandai suka dgn nya...tp ku tau sampai bila2 pun ku sik kn dpt...seperti yg nya pdh ngn ku hubuungan mek 2 sik kn pernah lebih dr sorg adk and abg sama dgn words MR.M tp at least nya sik jadi kdk MR.M....now nya still layan aku mcm sebelum nya....that yg buat ku bersyukur gilak2....nya still Adiwira yg ku knl....=')...
             Ku kn slalu doa kn kebahagiaan nya dgn grk nya...semoga cdak nya always happy...even now cdakk nya separate sementara but it does't mean cdak nya break right?....g pun cdak nya polah keputusan untk separate sementara pun coz cdak nya mok focus ngn study masing2....btw ku mok jwak kdk ya eyh....ku xmok grk dolok time tok....(tp ku x jnji kn apa2 lah....coz jodoh d tngan tuhan)...but i will try my best....g pun bnyak bnda yg ku mst pertaruh kn and abai kn buat masa tok..mklum lah SPM dh dekat....penentu hidup ku ya....errr!!!...chaiyok2 for me..

-MESSAGE 2-

                 skali gik ex aku post something yg berbunyi..."sha I want you to know as long as we have MEMORIES,yesterday REMAINS and as long as we have HOPE,tomorrow AWAITS......you deserve someone better sha...but If you still waiting for HIM,I want you to know that we all always besides you....don't ever you become like before ok.....you always said that you want back to december I know what the reason....but december is the month that full with laugh and tears for you sha.....ok I GTG now...TC k....=)....".....dh 2 post nya send kat aku.....ermmm~....nya lah satu2 nya ex aku yg care ngn aku....xmcm nk sorg ya...='(....
               Btw ku tetap akan tunggu adiwira ku sampai ku temu org yg bena2 boleh ganti tmpat nya.....even nya dh da grk tp xslah untuk aku mencintai nya nk?....aku bkn nya mok kaco hbngn cdak nya pun,ku just suka @ mybe syg ngn nya even ku xdpt memiliki nya.....semua org da hak untk mencintai spa2 pun even terpksa mencinta tnpa balasan sekali pun.....sometime ku binggong knk lah ku tok terlalu mudah mencintai and ssh melupa kn nya....ermmm~.....sena nya ku g binggong bh,pa perasaan ku tok sena nya....sanggup ka ku tunggu nya....
              Tp syukur lah yg nya still anggap ku mcm adk nya and nasib jwak lah yg nya xjd kdk org yg sebelum nya (MR.M).....yg sebelum ya alu hilang tnpa kata....even apa yg terjadi ku syukur gilak2....=')

-MESSAGE-

              Ex ku post something dlm wall aku yg berbunyi begini...."sha I have something to tell you..now I know bnyk yg lain di antara kita....even kita still rapat tp nya x kdk dolok g right....but one thing I want you to know if you believe that your heart now just belong with him promise me you won't let anyone hurt you and please don't force yourself for loving him...remember I always be here for you even if it kills me to see you....=L..".....pa mksd nya ow....itok alu aku....btw bila nya pdh gia aku otomatik ingt ngn adiwira eyh....ermm.....tp ku perlu terus kn usaha aku untuk membenteras perasaan ku terhadap adiwira....now ku harus bersyukur yg adiwira g layan ku mcm sebelum nya x kdk mr.m....huhuhu....now I must set In my head yg ku harus buang/benteras perasaan ku yg tdk masuk akal ya....=')

-BACK TO THE SCHOOL-

                    Wah dh 2 minggu dh hari persekolahan bermula.....sumpah I gonna miss all the memories of 2010.....even for the last day of 2010 adalah hari kegelapan bg ku tp still da jwak sinaran kebahagiaan ku.....especially start form bulan 11...
             Mun d baca blog update ku yg lps mybe takrg dh tau nk yg new year ku tau tok xkdk selama tok....new year kali tok bena2 wrost bagi ku and ku rasa mybe akan mengubah ku sepenuh nya.....slama tok ku ingt ku dh kna karma yg hebat tp tnpa ku sedar new year tok 01.01.11 bena2 akan mengubah aku....ermm.....='(
            Aku mengharap kn perubahan ya adalah perubahan positive...this year aku dh naik pangkat...dr seorg pelajar biasa menjadi "SPM CANDIDATE"....Tahun d mana akan menentu kehidupan ku...tahun d mana aku aku mempertaruh kan hidup ku....
          Aku dh lelah menangis...tp tangisan tetap masih mok menemani ku....ah...biar lah....nangis pun nangis lah...dh lumrah dlm kehidupan nk....ada msa kta ketawa,marah,senyum,nangis and mcm2 g emotion lah.....
       

-Reality Of Life-

               The feelings stay with you forever. They may fade but they never really go away.You can forget about them, the person, each moment, the whole relationship, and move on, but when looking back, for some reason, the feelings reappear, even if you don’t feel that way anymore, even if you’re completely over it, you still remember the feeling of being loved, being nervous, being hurt, being embarrassed, being betrayed — you mind remembers it so well sometimes that your body can still reenact it in an instant with every fiber, every atom it has, regardless of how long it’s been since you’ve felt that way. Because that never really matters, especially when it comes to the feelings that once made our hearts beat in a rhythm we never knew was possible.


*special for mr.adiwira...

-I'M SORRY-

               I'm sorry I constantly walk to talk to you.....I'm sorry when you take long to reply,I get sad....I'm sorry if I say something that might piss you off....I'm sorry if I come off as annoying....I'm sorry if you don't wanna talk to me as much as I wanna talk to you...I'm sorry if I think about you too much and too often....I'm sorry if I tell you about my pointless drama when you don't really care...I'm sorry if I come off as being clingy,but its just me missing you......='(


*special for mr.adiwira..

-I AM ME-

                 I am me....In all the world no one else exactly like me....Everything that come out of me is authentically mine,because I alone choose it.....I own everything about me:my body,my feelings,my mouth,my voice,,all my action,whether be to others or myself...I own my fantasies,my dreams,my hopes,my fears....I own my triumphs and successes,all my failure and mistakes...Because I own all of me...I can become intimately acquainted with me...By so doing ,I can love me and be friendly with all my part...I know there are aspects about myself that puzzle me and others aspects that I don't know...But as long as I am friendly and loving to myself,I can courageously and hopefully look for solutions to the puzzles and ways the find out more about me...However I look and sound,whatever I think and feel at a given moment in time is authentically me...If later some parts of how I looked,sounded,thought,and felt turn out to be unfitting...I can discard that which is unfitting,keep the rest,and invent something new for that which I discarded...I can see,hear,think,say,do....I have the tools to survive,to be close to others,to be productive,and to make sense and order out of the world of people and things outside of me....I own me and therefore I can engineer me...I am me and I am ok.......THE END....