-ONE DAY,IT WON'T BE ENOUGH-

                 One day it’s not going to be enough. These inside jokes, that comfortableness that no one else holds, the chemistry that never went away in your transition from lovers to friends and back every now and then — it will all suddenly not be enough. You’ll soon realize those small moments of happiness actually don’t add up to anything much, won’t add up to what you really want, what you actually deserve. But you won’t realize this right away. Sometimes it takes months, sometimes even years to get to this point, because throughout that whole time you will convince yourself that it’s okay, that you don’t need anything more. That if they’re happy, then you’re happy and that’s all that matters, that’s all that matters as long as it means you get to be together in some way, any way, even if it’s just as friends as far as anyone knows, or lovers behind closed doors. But the thing is, eventually you’ll want something more (as you always did all along except you just got good at denying yourself of that fact) and you will go on the spectrum from smiling more than hurting to the heartbreaking opposite of that. And one day, you’ll come to conclusion that this is it, I can’t take it anymore and you’ll realize the change you’ve been waiting forever for is never going to come like you had hoped it would have a long time ago.

#writing my heart out

-BIRTHDAY GIRL-

               Marek birthday bestfriend ku DAYANG SITI NURSHARINA....tp syg mekrg sik da pergi sekolah marek coz nolong cikgu kat indoor stadium marek...huhuhu...sik da mood birthday girl marek coz selama tok mesti nya peluk cium mekrg...huhuhu
            Esok ku mok cari present pakai nya lah and awal pagi isnin ku mok peluk cium nya...hahaha....rindu aie ngn nya..dh nya da problem dalam beberapa minggu tok tek...sedih nangga nya mala jak sik da mood..dh nya ya jenis yg happy go lucky tup tup bila nangga nya sedih tang sunyi jak group mekrg....hope birthday nya kali tok akan mengubah segala nya...ku mok bff aku yg lamak ya....=)

           *tok lah salah satu gambr gila2 nya...love you dear...=)

-CRUSH-

                 Btw lamak dah ku sik update blog tok ow..maklum lah penggunaan laptop d sekat every weekdays...ku pilih tajuk 'crush' kali tok...mun takrg perasaan ku pernah padah yang ku sik kan pernah fall in love gik after ADIWIRA nk?...tp ku rasa ku dah langgar janji lah..ermmm...tp ADIWIRA still jadi org first yang ada di hati nektok...=)
              Permulaan cerita...semua nya bermula time pertengahan form 4...start dari nya kat kelas ya mesti ku bergaduh jak2 ngn nya...sampai kn setiap hari ku madah ngn kawan2 ku yg ku "benci" laki ya...aku pun sik tau apa masalah ku ngn nya sampai kn everyday bergaduh...lejuk org dengar mek 2 bertikam lidah...aku gik angol..
              Tup tup awal bulan 2 tahun tok ku pandai tersuka or tercrush ngan nya...ermm....semua nya start dari pandangan nya..ku pun sik tau kena hati ku tergerak mok noleh kat tempat duduk nya...tiba2 pandangan mek 2 bertembung,adoi2...time ya dua2 otomatik alih pandangan....hahaha...start dari cia ku pndai tercrush ngan nya...huhuhu
               Tapi ku terperasan akan keakraban seorang kawan ku ngan laki tok lah...antara aku ngan kawan ku tok banyak perbezaan...aku jenis yg suka main2 and kasar tapi kawan ku tok lemah lembut and nya kira rapat lah ngang laki ya...mun nya cakap ngn laki ya mesti lemah lembut jak lain lah aku dari jaoh g nangga laki ya confirm bergaduh jak2....nang sik dapat bertemu....hahaha...tapi mana2 lah ku sik mengharap gilak coz laki ya pun da gerek...apa2 pun yg terjadi diam jak lah..bak kata kawan ku 'wait and see'...huhuhu

-HAPPY MODE-

                       Entah lah mcm nie mok pdh....after jak ku post bout ya tiba2 nya commnt post ya....wow!!...that I called it amazing + awesome.....ku ingat kn nya sik gago pun ngn post ku ya or mybe mun nya sedar pun ku hnya m'harap kn nya like post ya coz ku paham lah sik kn lah nya mok satu FB tau psl ya nk....erm...but ku happy gilak2 at least nya sik kisah gik ngn smua bnda ya...yg lps buat lah cara lps tek nk...hee~

                  Even ku sedih sik pat join geng lain pergi potluck tp apa yg terjd td bena2 dh   mengubah mood aku menjadi happy gila....hehehe....now ku just bole tersenyum lebar and peluk cium patong DOMO ku yg ku beri nama sempena nickname yg ku beri ngn nya iaitu ADIWRIA....mklum llah kinek tok hnya pada patong DOMO a.k.a ADIWIRA jak tmpat ku melepas rindu kat nya....lak mun ku da duit msk ku mok beli DOMO yg bsr g,kinek tok dh bnyk org yg gila kn DOMO termsk aku....=)

                   Now ku bna2 dh belajar erti hidup yg sebena thanks gilak2 kat ADIWIRA yg dh menyedar kn aku bahawa bkn smua yg kta suka harus menjadi milik kta and ku dh mula sdr bahawa special relationship bna2 akan menambah maslah pa gik dlm zaman remaja tok...ku kn ingt setiap bnda yg ADIWIRA pernah nasihat ku dolok until kinek tok ku g simpan inbox ya.....even ku kn nangis tiap kali bca inbox ya tp ku tetap memaksa diri aku bca bnda ya mun perasaan cinta ku kat nya dtg gik....hahahaha...actually lawak lah smua ya bagi ku......

                  Apa2 pun ku happy gilak2 kinek tok dgn kewujudan ADIWIRA....even sebagai abg or sahabat astronomy (dh berapa kali ku mention bout tok ow...dlm post ku nk lmk2 pun ku da mention bout tok...hehehe)......that all for today I think....happy gilak2 eyh...alang kn bgs mun nya tau apa yg ku rasa kinek....alang kn bgs mun nya bca blog aku kinek.....ermmm.....before tok ku pernh merajuk gara2 nya time kat gading,then ku happy gilak2 ngn nya after ya,then ku pndai fall in love ngn nya gara2 advice yg nya beri ngn ku,then ku nangis gara2 nya time new year,then ku happy balit ngn nya coz nya x pulau kn aku until now.....such a wonderful story for me......=)

-AWESOME-

                 The awesome thing happen this 2 days......guess what??......ADIWIRA post something dlm wall aku 2 hari tok tek....amazing for me.....frst post nya "Hey sha. Happy Chinese New Year :)..."......frst expression ku is smile all the day.......hahahahaha.....then last night his post something again sound like this "Hai sha. Kenak kmk nangga status ktk mala jak madah ktk sakit? Kenak tak? Main hujan jak nak? Take care.. Rehat byk2. kelak demam dah masok sekolah lak.. Susah gik...."....ya menunjuk kn nya still cares ngn aku even after what happen before...Ku arap mun nya bca tok iboh lah nya mok manas ngn ku indh.....this only my expression nothing much ok.....=)
               Anyway,now I already have my own DOMO and already decided to named my DOMO as ADIWIRA..hee~.....actually I want to named my DOMO as MR.DOMO but its like common.....then I decided to giving my domo-kun that name.....sempena nickname yg ku beri kn nya.....ADIWIRA

-MY BESTIES BIRTHDAY-

                       Rie tok 23 jan...bday salah seorg bff aku yg ku syg gilak2....nya tok sorg yg tinggi,putih and da campuran arab...muka nya nang kdk arab....hehehe.....prangai nya tok nang kdk mbiak kecik and sorg yg sabar....that why ku syg nya....mun ku da masalah ku slalu crita ngn nya,especially bout love....either happy or sedih....
                   23 jan genap umur nya 17 tahun...dh tua kwn ku tok....marek sempat keluar ngn nya main badminton...enjoy gilak...tok gmbr mekrg>>>

-AMAZING-

                 Bila ku post kdk tok "You may not love me today,tomorrow or ever....but I will love you until it kills me and even then....you'll be in my heart....=')" Adiwira is the third one yg like status ya...ku tau nya paham mksd ku....tp ku xtau lah nya kn marah ngn ku or sik....antara nya paham isi hati ku or sik..ermmm~
                 In the same time MR.M pun like status ya...tp ku sik mksd kn MR.M pun ku mksd kn Adiwira....harap nya paham....huhuhu....tp sik pa lah..at least cdak g cares ngn bnda di post ku nk.....ku sik tau pa perasaan ku nektok...either happy or sebalik nya....-.-