-THE PAIN OF LOVE-

*Sometimes even if we’re in pain, we think about how much we love the other first than the fact that they are hurting us. 

-ANSWER FOR THE QUESTION-

                    Finally semua dah terjawab..even ku rasa ku dah tercrush ngan someone dalam kelas ku and beranggapan yang ku dh berjaya melupakan ADIWIRA serta dah melanggar janji ku tapi semua anggapan ku salah...ADIWIRA tetap dalam posisi nya dolok,ku lom jumpa orang yang dapat menganti kan tempat nya..
                    Ku pun heran kenak nya still dalam hati ku even nya dah padah yang hubungan mek 2 sik kan pernah lebih dari seorang abang and adik..mybe sampai kinek tok ku lom jumpa seorang penganti yg persis kdk nya...seorang yg caring,loving,supportive and mcam2 g lah...nya lah the only one yang beri nasihat ngan aku and serta merta ku turuti,sampai kan makanan yang nya suruh ku makan pun kinek2 jwak ku cari...ermm..nya bena2 dh menguasai pemikiran aku,and semua bnda yang nya nasihati semua nya demi kebaikan ku lah...
                    Nasihat yang sampai tok yang ku sik pat tunai kan is pergi ke dapur untuk minum d tengah malam...nya slalu soh aku menjadi berani,lawan rasa takut ya and akuu pun laku kan just setiap kali ku buat benda ya mesti macam2 benda terjadi..kedak malam tadi kaki ku terlanggar bnda then alu berdarah kuku ku...
                  Terlalu banyak benda yang ADIWIRA dah ubah dalam diri ku...mybe perubahan yang nya beri kat aku ya adalah seperti nasihat seorang abang kepada adik nya...btw ku nang selesa dengan nya lah,hope semua nya still kedak sebelum tok...=') 

-MY SWEET 17TEEN-

                  Hari tok 060311 genap lah umur ku 17 tahun...sik sangka ku dh 17 tahun aie,sik pernah ku terpikir yang aku akan menjadi lebih matang and dewasa,cause perangai aku nang kedak mbiak kecik jak2...bila lah ku mok berubah menjadi matang..perangai ku nektok nang sik macam org umur 17 tahun lah...hahaha
               Tepat kol 12 tgh mlm td ku trima msj wish dari kawan-kawan ku and ADIWIRA lah org yg first sekali wish aku cun2 jak..akhir nya pa yang ku hajat kan tercapai,tp ku tetap rasa kelainan kat nya..ermm....mybe mainan perasaan ku jak kot..
                Btw kakak ku bru balit dari miri and nya beli kan ku selipar BANANAPEEL ngn BEG HP DOMO...yalh first hadiah yg ku dapat for my birthday...hee~ dh lah kakak ku spon makan steamboat kat D11 td...yum2!!!
               Senanya sigek g hajat ku sik tercapai and aku tau hajat ya confirm sik kn tercapai....ku hnya mampu mengharap and nangga bnda ya jak....ermmmm~...btw mls ku mok pikir gik...apa pun yang terjadi ku terima jak..mun nya jodoh ku sik kemana nak....hope pat jumpa nya time PSACS kelak...=')


*HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!!

-GIRLS-

                    Girls are much more than what they seem. they’re more than just the makeup, the clothes, the shoes, the bags, the sunglasses, the outside. they’re more than just whiny bitches. we’re so much more.. too bad some boys can’t understand. a girl’s life is a bitch itself. on a daily basis we deal with bitches, backstabbers, lies, boyfriends, crushes, exes, appearance, insecurity, bullying and so much more. everyday we wake up, we have to shower. we have to fix our hair. then, we have to get dressed. we spend hours infront of our mirror for you. making sure we look good. then we have to apply make up. while doing all this, there’s so much to consider.. especially gossipers and guys. if something’s too short, they’ll call us a whore. something’s too long, they’ll call us ugly. we go through buckets full of ice cream because we’ve had way too many broken hearts. we cry because bitches wanna hate and boyfriends wanna bitch. we can’t complain because we don’t wanna be annoying. we trust people, then they end up stabbing us in the back. we learn stuff the hard way. every guy out there making a period joke, like are you for real? no. just because you’re being a little bitch and pissing me off doesn’t mean i’m on my period. get over it. we get hurt multiple times, and keep running back to the same people. we love hard, and hurt hard. we care too much. we’re never understood. we go through so much trouble when you don’t even notice. we listen to songs till five in the morning and fall asleep to it just because it reminds us of you. we try so hard to impress you, while dealing with all that’s said about us. after everything, we sit our asses down on tumblr and reblog everything that reminds us of you. we spill our guts out to our bestfriends who’ve probably had enough of you. we go on facebook and we check your profile a million times, and go through all your pictures. even if we have seen them all before. we hear what people say about us, and sometimes we break inside. but no matter what, even after everything, we have to come out strong. we have to put a big smile on our faces and pretend like everything’s ok. we have to act nice towards the haters, even knowing everything that they said about us. we love even though we know we shouldn’t. and we wait for something that’ll never happen. but no matter what, we manage to act like everything’s fine, even though everything’s falling apart. that’s a day in a girl’s life. imagine dealing with all that everyday. we’re so much more than what you think. so much more than what we seem.

-ADMIRE-

                      Ermmm....gniey mok mula kan cerita ku ow?...btw crita nya kedak tok,before tok ku nk kan pernah cerita pasal ku crush ngn orang yang selalu ngan ku gaduh nk?....now da g cerita bru,rie jumaat tok tek da lah kawan sekelas ku yang ku beri gelaran CIFINAFA nya padah nya mok tackle aku...-.-' padahal aku sik pernah pun mok suka ngan nya,perasaan ku untuk nya sik kan lebih dari seorang kawan...huhuhu
                 Dalam masa yang sama jwak ku bru tau yg kawan sekelas ku yg selalu gaduh ngn ku jwak suka ngn aku....-.- pa lah salah ku sampai kan semua tok terjadi dengan serentak....parai nyawa antam nya...nak seorang ya ku try mok lupa kan cause kawan ku suka ngan nya,nk CIFINAFA  
ya pula ku nang sik suka ngan nya cause nya selalu nganok aku and nak last tok ku sik tau mok padah apa..dgr cerita nya g bergerek ngn ompuan lam kelas mekrg ya...ermmm....sik tau ku eyh,palah dosa ku sampai benda kedak tok terjadi..tp ku redha jak lah mybe da hikmah di sebalik smua tok....o.O

-ONE DAY,IT WON'T BE ENOUGH-

                 One day it’s not going to be enough. These inside jokes, that comfortableness that no one else holds, the chemistry that never went away in your transition from lovers to friends and back every now and then — it will all suddenly not be enough. You’ll soon realize those small moments of happiness actually don’t add up to anything much, won’t add up to what you really want, what you actually deserve. But you won’t realize this right away. Sometimes it takes months, sometimes even years to get to this point, because throughout that whole time you will convince yourself that it’s okay, that you don’t need anything more. That if they’re happy, then you’re happy and that’s all that matters, that’s all that matters as long as it means you get to be together in some way, any way, even if it’s just as friends as far as anyone knows, or lovers behind closed doors. But the thing is, eventually you’ll want something more (as you always did all along except you just got good at denying yourself of that fact) and you will go on the spectrum from smiling more than hurting to the heartbreaking opposite of that. And one day, you’ll come to conclusion that this is it, I can’t take it anymore and you’ll realize the change you’ve been waiting forever for is never going to come like you had hoped it would have a long time ago.

#writing my heart out

-BIRTHDAY GIRL-

               Marek birthday bestfriend ku DAYANG SITI NURSHARINA....tp syg mekrg sik da pergi sekolah marek coz nolong cikgu kat indoor stadium marek...huhuhu...sik da mood birthday girl marek coz selama tok mesti nya peluk cium mekrg...huhuhu
            Esok ku mok cari present pakai nya lah and awal pagi isnin ku mok peluk cium nya...hahaha....rindu aie ngn nya..dh nya da problem dalam beberapa minggu tok tek...sedih nangga nya mala jak sik da mood..dh nya ya jenis yg happy go lucky tup tup bila nangga nya sedih tang sunyi jak group mekrg....hope birthday nya kali tok akan mengubah segala nya...ku mok bff aku yg lamak ya....=)

           *tok lah salah satu gambr gila2 nya...love you dear...=)